I feel insanely disgusting and fat today. I feel gross because there is food in my stomache. I wanna puke all of it out but I can't because my tonsils are swollen and my brother is already suspicious. I want my stomache to feel empty again so I can be proud of myself and know that I am getting thinner. I keep kicking myself in my mind for eating anything. I don't want to plateau though. I want to lose fat. It's not comfortable to be overweight anymore. It's disgusting. I've wasted to much time now being fat. I am not happy with myself. I feel like crying. Please, someone help me.